♥Thou Reminiscent Reflections♥

Monday, June 16, 2008 @ 1:16 AM




I feel like taking a break from the life I lead, run away to somewhere far away, I think I'm about to hide somewhere for a day alone, off my phone so no one can contact me and just to think through everything. So if anyone of you cant contact me you know why. haha But on a serious note, I think I'm sick and tired of compromising to certain people how they would want me to act in certain ways. I keep giving in, knowing that's not what I really want or really am comfortable with it, maybe that's why some people take advantage of that, knowing I'll keep quiet. Well, I'm not saying that how I am now is fake and that I am just putting on an act infront of everyone but I guess how I react to certain stuff may not necessarily conclude who I really am as a person. Like I'm all 'HAHA& Retardedly high' sometimes and some people may think that I am really outgoing, daring and all but I guess when it comes to certain stuff I'm like such an idiot. haha if that's the word to describe it. (well, that's if you know me well enuf) So, I guess I have to come to terms with how I really feel deep down. Maybe one thing I know Im positively sure abt myself. People who doesnt know me can conclude something abt me or bitchh or hate me whatever it is! I dont care. Cos I love who I am and the minority who doesnt even know me wont even matter in my life! (For those of you who doesnt understand what Im saying, forget it! I just feel like ranting whatever that comes to my mind, so dont ask me abt it Thanks)

I told everyone whom I was talking to on msn I was going to sleep, Yet as I log off msn, I just couldnt fall asleep, staring around my room isn't of any help at all. Blame it on my used to alr sleeping at 5am onwards during the hols :( Screwed up body clock. haha But I know... I can't help to think abt certain things. Damn it! school's tomorrow. Sigh :( But can't wait to see the classmates though and other loves of mine (:

Anyway, I shall just sum up my weekend and head to bed. I think I'm so totally going to die at school tmr :(


Friday afternoon, went to Isaac's house and we watched this stupid show "Joshua" hahaha it was supposed to be a horror film but guess what? (OH! and we spend almost 20mins just deciding what to watch, ended up it just sucks!) I laughed more than I got shocked lol and I was going on and on about how cute Joshua is. But Some idiot claims that I was retarded and that I was a peadophile WTF! and then we watched (SHIT! I cant rmb what we watched?) Isaac! see! its so boring that I cant even rmb what we watched. haha YA! my point was I fell asleep man and when I woke up it was time to leave haha. And at the EZY movie thing, there was this fat man who made us wait for superdamnlong just to return the vcd -.- and I shouted at him but Isaac was like freaking "JACCCCC! stop it!" hahaha Told you I was always high :D But I didnt know how you came up with me being quiet in person! haha Anyway had fun with you that day (: LOL OH! and he wrote me a song, so sweet huhh? haha yes yes! I know nobody wrote me a song before so you're damn good la okay! Thanks anyway (:

After that headed to sister's place around there for dinner with Francis, daniel, keith, joycelyn, william and shawn and had a great chatting session (: I'm most probably leaving church end of the year! Sigh. oh well. I shall go deeper into church another day.

After dinner, I unexpectedly headed to MOS again :( dragged by Sathya and her 3 friends from workplace. Wayne, Arif and Shawn (sorry if I spelled the names wrongly!) I was like wearing shorts and teeshirt so sathya brought this top/dress for me and OMG! it was so short okay. I decided to wear my shorts underneath as I wasnt used to wearing so short before and I think I annoyed Sathya very badly, cos I kept pulling the top down non-stop and I kept telling her "Eh die la! so short wa lao eh! die la, how ah" hahaha and I forced her to go to the toilet with me alot of times and I kept fussing over it. I swear this was the first time I wore something I felt so uncomfortable in my whole entire life! Plus I was wearing haviannas and I looked superduper horrible, like the bag I was carrying was to go to the beach or something! And I just looked like crap. Thank God! I dont use makeup, if not it would be doubly worse. But after I was inside alr, I didnt bother cos it was pitch black! haha. Anyway I swear I wont ever go MOS again, its really urggghhh! The choice of music and the people Gosh! Alot of MATS think they very cool please, all wanna dance like they're so HOT! OMG! I really cant stand it. I turned away from at least 6 malays ok! the chinese ones also. Nvm! I shan't elaborate. haha but practically I just didnt wanna dance with anyone. I'm weird! And sathya was like "Go in the centre and dance go go! then people will buy us drink" GOSH! that girl is really crazy and she dances like there's no tomorrow. haha And I saved money for mac's breakfast! An angmoh paid for me hahahahaha (: He told the counter person "She's my 35secs best friend" (Nvm! inside joke) haha Anw more photos in Arif's cam, for now its sathya and I. We finally get to club tgt after saying for so long. hahaha Had fun with you babe (:




OMG! I think I've like so many things to blog abt that I'm really tired of typing alr, so I shall just type shortly and sweetly. So saturday I slept till 5pm and I went to rebond my hair at fareast! Sadly no peektures hahaha. The rebonding took me 4.5 hrs ok from 7-11.30? longest ever! I almost died. $98, weird though. the aunty told me it was $90 bucks over the phone. Oh well! then headed to Chijmes, Harry's to have dinner around there then home sweet home! And Sunday! Went to church, really boring :( then after church went for lunch and caught "The happening" with bt, dan, cj, shawn and jer. I really think I'm becoming like a boy! Cos I keep hanging around guys nowadays. Tsk tsk! Thanks to Vanda who have to work :( Sighhh miss you babe. Havent catch up with her since I dont know when. Oh well! yes missed her so much that we went to Suntec, IT fair to look for her (: Had dinner with bt at mac while the rest ate at Pastamania. Then bt and I had this 'question time, where each of us took turns to ask each other questions' LOL He really asked me some hard ones though. But it was a good secret time haha found out alot abt him (: Then Home sweet Home!


Okay basically that sums it all up! my weekend. Oh and dont watch 'The happening' It really sucks. OMG! damn boring. haha okay its 301am and I'm think Im really dead! sybil is up tooo Gosh! haha Nights! yay tmr out with the Girlfriends <3>

*Anw I think you should know who you are, seriously, Im not mad or anything, just thought u were a little absurd in what you told me. I've been in your situation before and I know how it really feels. If it hurts so bad and you cant take it anymore of what's going on in my life then please get on with your life and don't talk to me. I'll gladly move out from your life just to help you move on, if it means losing this friendship. You're always suddenly texting me geting angry at me for hurting you, I'm sorry for being so insensitive But what do you expect me to do? Maybe You shouldnt waste your time holding on to something so worthless. It's seriously not worth it. Go think about it, dont hang there for something that's so insignificant. You takecare then (:
Hugs and Kisses, ♥
Jacintha