beauty is superficial

2009-05-07T00:17:00.003+08:00

I'm so disappointed, what's the point of putting in effort when its someone else who pulls you down. Fuck. So unmotivated to go school now. Sometimes not putting in any effort might be the best thing to do.

And I sprain my ankle.

How can I pull through this year? and I don't even know a thing abt my damned future.

2009-04-27T22:24:00.003+08:00

Just some random thoughts going on in my head.

Ever wondered how much effort you put into stuffs yet they only end up with results that disappoint you, how you trust someone or something so much yet they still fail you. How everything will end? How you know not to do something yet you still do it and end up you're the one getting hurt? How you try so hard explaining something to people yet they just don't get it, instead they get angry and how things will finally become? I guess disappointments aren't unavoidable but we still have to keep trying and trust God (:

Caught Fast and Furious with the BFF's (: Show is great, would rate it 4/5. Girls in there are rather hot! HAHA no cute guys though!

UT1 is coming up on May 21st --> Manufacturing UT :( Gotta start revising! Hopefully I'll get a B at least. wanna pull up my GPA. I'm even gonna print out sales management and marketing notes to study! Feeling kinda dull and stress lately. For FYP haven't even completed prototype and soon we're gonna do coding. Sigh really feeling extremely dry and tired, I really need some extra energy. Why do I feel like breaking down soon? Maybe its not cos of studies, totally hate the way I'm feeling now :( Oh wells, guess I'll get over it!

As for MC, thank God sales isn't bad (: Just launched Collection 10 "Back to School" Do take a look --> http://masqueradechics.livejournal.com/12008.html
Thanks isaac for helping us again, without him we're so dead :(

Alright, back to prototyping and reading of 6p's. Goodnight (:

2009-04-20T21:59:00.003+08:00

Its indeed how powerful saying a prayer before sleeping and waking up makes you feel really light hearted. And I started the day feeling really fresh!

I'm gonna make my life a fulfilled one from today onwards (:

Today first day of school was not too bad. Could understand what was going on and had fun with what I was doing. Though lesson was a bit draggy but I paid attention. Junfei and some new guy named shemeer said I look like this girl Christina and kept saying we really looked alike. WTH! haha I really dunno about that. Honxiang saw me and started calling me Christina too. Ya! Nvm After that, had discussion for FYP and rushed back for dance. Now I'm feeling tired, gonna read the bible and then head to bed soon cos school starts at 9am tomorrow. Shall sleep before 11pm!

My LV inspired green bucket bag came today! Love it (: So preety right? LOL

Ugh! MC's sales sucked recently, so dead. We really need a new collection but esther and I am so so busy. Help! Hope we are able to get stocks soon!

Really hope to pull up my GPA this sem, and with God's help I know I can do it (:

Alright, signing off! Goodnight.

2009-04-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

Cause Lord only knows another day here's not really guaranteed

Was browsing some stuff online and came across the above phrase in a song by Alicia Keys "Like you'll never see my again" Maybe its God reminding me that indeed life is fragile and who knows tomorrow you or I might be gone and not able to live life to the fullest when we could have done it.

Hearing so many things about God coming back and all the signs that's recently been happening on the news is indeed frightening. But why do people still doubt there is really a God. Its so saddening. Seeing the way some people lead their life is indeed an irony The more they act out of line, the more attention they get, whereas people who belong to the "norm" gets all the reprimanding. Don't think many would get the idea of what I'm actually blabbering about. Well since its my personal space, you don't really have to get it.

So many times I've tried and failed, so sick of being a Sunday Christian so sick of just making promises on Sunday and back to my "Ungodly ways" in the week. So so sick of knowing what you ought not to do, but still doing it. I guess not making any promises is better isn't it? Growing up is a struggle, being a christian isn't an easier. Sometimes you think about it, its better to just be an ordinary person in the world without any faith. But I guess it isn't fair saying all these knowing God did pull me through in many situations and I know for sure he exists, if not I wouldn't be where I am today. Guess, I'm still figuring God out, or should I say figuring myself as a christian out.

I'll just pray for strength that one day I'll become who God wants me to be and it would be so easy living the christian life. I think its really time I wake up and act out my faith and not just be someone ordinary. I believe it will happen (:

2009-04-09T01:57:00.013+08:00

Yes. I've noticed 2 months since I've last blogged. Though it has been holidays for me but still pretty busy with the blogshop and other stuffs. (Btw, mailing list hits 400 :D ) For those of you who don't know, esther and me has a blogshop known as masqueradechics.livejournal.com and we'll be having a flea this weekend. Logon to the webpage for more details --> HERE Collection 9 is up too!

Would update more often once school starts on 20th this month. (Hopefully) Shuckssss, yupp that's another reminder for myself and everyone from RP. Yes! 20th school starts. On the brighter side, school starts at 10am every Mon and Thu for me. But FYP every Wed is just dreadful.

Time has been passing me by just like that. I wouldn't say the holidays wasn't fulfilling for me. Well in a way yes, but not good enough. There's just too many things to be done and I'm just great at procrastinating. One good eg. I'm suppposed to be finishing up my use case specs for FYP but nooo, just cant do it, I don't know how.

Faith; it grows on you

It has been so long since I last blog, so there's too many things to update. I'll just move on to whatever I'm planning to say. I don't like to blog too long, it bores people haha.

Just when school's about to reopen, I finally got myself a job. In need of serious cash. Will be working at GUESS again with the girls (: Currently am also involved in a jazz/hiphop dance too. Come support me k (: Have only been to 1 practice so far so unless I really suck, I wont want you guys to come. HAHA So you can see how busy I am.

Seeing how busy I am, I'm not feeling too good either. And this lyrics suddenly comes to my mind "How many times have I broken your heart, still you forgave if only I ask" Of all the people in the world that I'm supposed to spent the most time with, but I neglect him time after time. Now to think about it, its better not to make empty promises. Srsly its so saddening. Guess not many people can comprehend this issue. But what Darryl said is soo true either. When you love someone, you naturally will spent more time with that person and not obey for the sake of it which is an obligation. I'll guess one day I'll truly understand it and I pray it would come sooner than I know.

Isaac Lim, first of all you see we haven't been taking pics so I've to use such an old pic. Hurry take pictures with me. And cheer up okay? I know it did not happened to me but I do understand how you're feeling. I've really run out of things to say already. But you know its not like a huge setback. Its just one tiny setback and if you know you have done your best then stop fretting over it. Just start concentrating and go school everyday for the new sem and you never know a miricle might happened. Just put more effort okay and you'll surely suceed. Stop being a pessismist and asking what if you won't succeed in future. I believe you will and please have faith in yourself. You keep concentrating on your flaws no wonder you're always gloomy. You rock at photography and I always love my collections pictures cos you never fail to make them so pretty. You have great potential you just need to realised and find them. Lastly its not that you have nothing to prioritise. You have you have to sit down and think and be more disciplined somtimes okay? Like really stop skipping school! And lastly you know you can't depend on yourself to get through in life. You need to support me in future okay. So wake up. I love you (: Here's a lyrics for you to read:

"Every victory comes in time, work today to change tomorrow. It gets easier, who's to say that you can't fly? Every step you take you get closer to your destination. You can feel it now, don't you know you're almost there! Sometimes life can place a stumbling block in your way, but you gotta keep the faith. Bring what's deep inside your heart to the light. And never give up, don't ever give up on you, Don't give up"

Have been hanging out with these humans, Love them loads. Got closer to them after hanging out (SHOP AND EAT) LOL! They're one of the best class and people I've known in RP. Thanks Yuikting for the sweet video too. You guys rock :D Rosalind missing!

As for Esther Chong, you suck la. Hahaha! You know I love you. (: Well, wanna thank God for you for coming into my life I'm sure our friendship was planned by God. Having someone to confide in when I'm down with whatever issues and when I'm backsliding, you encouraged me and even offered to go church with me even when you went already. And alot more like me teaching you how to make a hole in Candle's clothes just to exchange. hahahhaa Compared to when we just know each other in W67R we just said hi and bye but ever since partnering you for the blogshop we've became so much closer and you're definitely someone I'll treasure. Stop worrying so much la okay? Huggs (: We're gonna be the next Charles and Keith LOL (and I must prove to Vanda that we're the first partners that wont quarell over our blog) hahahah.

Okay. I think I've blogged a fruitful post after so long (: Tomorrow FYP in school then dance at night. Sure to be a hectic day. Goodnight everyone :D

2009-02-06T03:20:00.000+08:00

Henderson wave, located at HortPart,MtFaber has such marvelous scenery. Really breath-taking. Btw, Daryl told me that a firefly's lifespan is only 3months, what a pity? Really sympathise with them. What an amazing & beautiful living thing, yet 3months and they die.

2009-02-05T01:05:00.005+08:00

Know what? I've the sudden urge to go up to the highest floor of any building and scream and vent everything out. I haven't felt like that in a long time. Yes, I mean a very long time.I wasn't like that in the past. Suddenly all my imperfections come to past. God knows what happened? I don't know. Do you? I just srsly feel very emotional. Yes, I don't need any sympathy cos I don't even know what the hell is wrong with me. God I do hate myself. Nvm fuck it, I shall head to bed.

Sometimes, I feel so sick of putting on a show like I'm okay with everyone, anyone. Yea, okay enough.

2009-02-01T01:44:00.004+08:00

Why does time pass by so quickly? It's already 1st Febuary of 2009. Just looking back, 1month ago making resolutions for year 2009 telling myself these and that to fulfill, yet I haven't done anything. Ugh! I so hate myself for procrastinating in life so much. If I don't start now, soon 2010 would be here and I'm gonna waste another year.

Jac..... Srsly, wtf is wrong with me? I should be more disciplined in life. God help me please? Sighh. its so demoralizing sometimes. I wished I wasn't that lazy or very often I would feel that sense of acomplisment and satisfaction instead of feeling like I've wasted my day. Yes, very often nowadays I get that alot. I totally hate my lifestyle and the way I'm compromising.

So as of today, I shall make my life more fulfilling and not procrastinate anymore when I plan to do something, I'll just hope I'll stick to it! (: I totally am able to do that. Yes

Anyway, Had been having a sorethroat and it was okay. Now its back Plus my voice isn't back yet over a week now. Its really depressing. Just hope that it isn't permanant. Sighhh.

Okay, anyway guys do catch bride wars and inkheart. But Bride wars is a definitely must watch film. You'll totally love it. Definitely!

Glad that its the hols now, hopefully I can get some events job or more tuition to keep the income coming and also take this opportunity to really rest and lose some uneccesary weight. F. fat sial.Can't stand it. Also, whenever you people are free, its good to catch some korean films, damn nice and you'll learnt a lesson or 2 from it. haha

Alright, there's church tmr, and I left 7hrs of sleep. So goodnight world. Love you'll to bits. Sweet dreams (:

xoxo

Jacintha(:

2009-01-08T23:41:00.004+08:00

30 Random things to rant about (:

1149pm now, sleeping after I typed this
Most friends says my hair suck :( They're pretty straightforward
Oh well, I've already cut it, I'll just wait for it to grow back.
But I kinda am getting used to it, I like it though
So I don't really care what they say la. haha
I should be confident about myself right? Yes, I love my hair (: LOL
Today I saw a C for my php grade
I think I'm really gonna flunk this module, my grades are atrocious
I really hate the PHP faci, HEs acting nice irritates the hell out of me
I'm so gonna be sacarstic at his next lesson. He asked for it!
I wished I would follow my 2009 resolutions as of next week.
I wanna be 46KG la!
I need to lose at least 4kg before I'm a happy girl
I'm 20 this year, its so fast and I feel so old
I miss Isaac, he's asleep so early
I feel sad for some reason. Sighhh
I can't wait to sell off my stuff online, though I'm baned
I can't wait for the holidays
Its my 6th Month with isaac this Saturday, so fast
I hope I'll quickly settle down in Riverlife
I ought to be praying and reading the bible everynight, but I'm not
I should be a better Christian, okay yes I will!
I hope to become prettier and skinnier
I should stop eating fattening food
I'm so fat ugghhhh eeew
Okay I should stop telling myself I'm fat
I hope to do so many much more stuff with isaac
Isaac go church with me!
I'm really sick of giving tuition but I need cash
Isaac I can hang out with you tmr. My girlfriend pangseh me :(

Okay I'm done ranting. I wanna watch a movie suddenly. Nvm tmr's there is school. Goodnight people! Hugss and Loves :D

2008-12-31T01:26:00.005+08:00

Where do you know to draw a line of having faith to pesevere on and to stop?

Came back from riverlife's camp, It was great I must say. Really refreshing too. At least I know I'm one step closer to God now (: Really great culture in Riverlife too, think I'll most probably settle there.

God, help me. Maybe I'm not listening enough.

2008-12-24T01:01:00.006+08:00

Hello there people!

I almost forgot how to blog, hahaha cos its been ages since I actually typed here :S have been really busy. Oh wait, maybe its cos I'm lazy to blog luh. haha Well, have bee doing somemore photoshoots with isaac. Kinda cool actually LOL. more clothes coming up. But ugghhh, haven't sold off the last few. And the stupid Glam's in nobody buy. How? tsk :( People ask people to support leh. Maybe this time cooler, cos black background then people will buy heh.

These are some pictures from the shoot, damn cool right pass around okay! :D And have been shopping alot alot haha but budget but still? nice what! okay nevermind.

Anyway going for a church camp from the 26th to 29th so miss me people, haha. Actually I'm quite excited, cos its been sooooo long since I've been to a camp haha. Just hope to get closer to God thru this camp. Siggghhh have been really spiritually weak and I hate that feeling. Just wanna be close to God once again. Sometimes, its just so hard. :(

But can't see Isaac for 4days. Will miss you baby. Love you alot alot alot. :D heh although sometimes I'm really so horrible towards you, I still love you alot okay? don't be mad at me :D Huggs.

Okay and this is already the 2nd week of the holidays but I'm like wasting it away doing meaningless stuff. Shall put to better use for the last week and like maybe start sleeping at 10pm on thu onwards so I can wake up on Monday haha and not be late for school for the last 3 weeks. Ugggh! Just thinking about school really sucks. I dread IT. Thank God there's only 2 modules of IT next year. God please help me man.

And I miss the school people obviously not classmates from this sem, people like yting, melody (although I just saw her not long) Esther, regine, rosalind, zoumei, cynthia and surprisingly Joel. hiaya you know people from our eat tgt clique la. So fun going out with them :D Also, vanda but nvm gonna see her the next few days and fangs which we supposed to go out but no and stephanie but seeing next few days and Jasper :D and gf and risha but have been meeting them and aiya aloot la!

Let's see, oh yes you guys gotta play "Left 4 dead" its a really nice game something like CS. 100 times more hahaha damn fun la srsly! now I don't mind hanging out at the lan shop already heh. Okay! and I caught alot alot of movies lately and tomorrow think I gonna catch another one with Sathya and Alicia. Finally meeting them! and Liankiat says he want to treat me cos he totally ps me on Monday yay! haha

Okay, so you guys should probably watch like Wild Child, Beverly Hills Chihuahua, Twilight and norah's playlist ain't that nice! let me see what else? can't really remember! I wanna watch bedtime stories and yes man and ip man people tell me nice anot k? if you have watch it!

Okay probably next week gonna rebond my hair with fangs then I can take my agnus B bag heh. and thanks to Isaac, I wanna get an iphone now. Let's see once I sell off my phone than I can consider yayness!

Alright gotta head to bed soon! takecare loves :D sleep tight! and oh yes have a happy Holiday and Merry Christmas. Love ya'll!

2008-12-02T23:01:00.005+08:00

Sometimes, I wish whenever someone say something they would actually mean it and not just not act on it. Nothing much though. Just one of "The Days" Overeaction I guess, but still. Maybe just maybe...

Anyway please help to support (:

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Advertise to anyone out there! :D

Goodnight, feeling like so f.up.

2008-11-16T01:22:00.005+08:00

HAHA! Photoshoot at isaac's place on Friday! Its great fun modelling (:

Thinking of putting the word "Faith" on my wrist, but haven't decided on the font yet. It would look something like the 1st picture (: If any of you have cooler fonts let me know okay :D But then again, I wonder what will parents say about that?

Anyway, I've got 2 sudden fetish! One is leopard prints stuff and the other is a scarf with like a ribbon thing hanging down. hee hee, and somehow I love the leopard prints shoes from charles and keith! and alot of other leopard prints stuff, but kinda overated la. Was at Shaw House mac just now and vanda and I was just chilling and at least 5people walked past us with leopard prints stuff. HAHA! But still, its love la. I'm soooo gonna get these 2 things!

Anyway bought a top today at $2o, usual price $40 had a 50% discount you see, kinda cool la the top :D haha Tomorrow I'm gonna shop and shop also, maybe go get the shoes from C&K :D and also go Haji Lane with Isaac and take some photos maybe :D Eh! Isaac you still owe me alot of photos please from Dampsey one somemore. tsk tsk

Gotta study for SAD ut3 tmr, so shan't be going out till too late. Jac study study study hard! Hope I can at least get a B and above for ut man. Sigh! God help me :( I'm seriously gonna mug and mug till I get it in my dumb head!

Okay, nothing much to blog anyway, except met up with vanda just now after at least a month. Finally her exams are over and she wanna come pick me up after school. hahaha! We camwhored over 7o pictures LOL. shall wait for her to send me the cooool pictures and then I'll upload it. Had so so much fun together being retarded and she kept laughing at me for running after the bus -.- So much for being caring not wanting us to miss the bus. But oh well we did, and she claimed that I was runing so enthusiastically as if I saw a million dollars. What a great description! Okay I'm so dumb la, not only did we missed the bus, I looked stupid infront of everyone at the bus stop :O!!!

Alright, I'm pretty tired already. I shall head to bed for now. Goodnight lovelies :D Huggggs!

2008-11-10T21:25:00.002+08:00

Today's the 4th month, yet I acted like a total complete bitch. I don't know what has gotten into me or what the hell is wrong with me. I'm really sorry. I know I spoiled your day big time. I know I should have stop acting like an asshole but I didn't. Yes, you must be thinking what the fuck is wrong with me. I don't know. I had to cry on the bus to think straight and to feel better from all everything before I decided to apologize. Yes, I know fuck me. You've been trying to be nice and everything and recently I'm just mood-swinging. It's just one of my really horrible days. Maybe you should just continue being angry. Don't talk to me, that sounds like a great plan. Maybe you need a better girlfriend, maybe someone more worth it who doesnt have mood swings occasionally. I'm not the one for you. Yes, maybe thats what concludes it all.

2008-11-06T22:29:00.006+08:00

I ought to be sleeping, but I can't

I've like alot of things on my mind now.

Just don't know where, when or how to start off.

So many unanswered questions in my head and maybe you're one of them. Reading your blog, pondering on your email. Maybe I should start replying your email although you said I shouldnt. But I guess this is the last time I would and whatever you want to reply, I shall end it there. Cos I'm really tired of the ups and downs of this friendship, the never ending clarifications. Just read the email and you'll know where I'm coming from. Then again, don't worry nobody knows I'm referring to you here (:

School's becoming more of a dread than an enjoyment recently! :( okay haha what a joke? since when have school been an enjoyment? Maybe it has like for awhile? LOL. I just hope to pull thru another 8weeks of school and I'll be jolly well happy for year 3. But then again, I'll be like so contradicting cos I don't wanna end my life in RP as I don't even know what I want to do after poly :(

Yes! Been working out in the gym, and tomorrow I'll be running around his house area. Damn damn damn fat! gotta lose some weight man :( Hopefully I'll be continuously motivated. people motivate me ok? If not I'll be like giving up really easily soon! haha Suppose to go to the gym tdy bu thanks to isaac I didn't! :( Okay I'm not blaming you la. haha

Nothing much to blog actually. Feeling kinda tired, very tired alr! Just glad that finally I can leave church to go to some place that I'll hope I'll grow. Haven't really decided to settle down in which church. Shall visit around before I make a decision. I've like so many places to go. Parents want me to go to Gladtidings! Denise wants me to go to Riverlife and I wanna see HopeofGod! Heard from Keith its really nice. I just hope that God will help me to settle down quickly and give me a place and I'll get back to him and rekindle the relationship once again. If any of you have any church you think its good do tell me :D Sigh. But kinda sad, will be stopping dance for awhile. No more dance ministry :( Feel quite sad that I'll not see aunty irene as often. She's really so sweet la. Miss you my mother in christ :D

Okay, time for bed. Goodnight everyone Love Love :D

2008-11-01T22:51:00.011+08:00

Sucks. One week of holidays so fast over :( But I enjoyed everyday of my holidays this week! And what's worst? The school welcomes me back with ut on tuesday Booooo!

Finally, went to the gym just now. Ran on the trackmail, tiring but fulfilling heh :D

Anyway, Those of you out there who are interested to buy Apple Products like Mac or ipod or whatever tell me k or also repair of your mac and stuff. There will be a little discount as well as free delivery to your door step cos my brotherrrrr ask me to help him promote. I don't even know why I'm being so kind to help him promote. when he's so evil to me Tsk -.-

Okay, anyway I should stop shopping online, bought so many stuff but either I can't fit or I don't like. I should stop wasting money!

Anyway here are some photos with my family that I took last Monday (On Deepavali) and was too tir
ed to upload it (: And also LIM FANGYING, if you read this, send me my photos la. See I cant blog :(

Went to Swensons for dinner, my treat which mummy has been bugging me about saying I work but never treat them and now I'm broke :(

Now I know I got my retarded genes from which parent. heh

Mummy's eye so big, mine so small :(
Awww! So sweet :D I love you mummy and daddy! sometimes only hahaha

Granny and aunty! Ahma so cute with her teeth. Damn cute la:D

Okay done ranting, now I'm gonna study a little of OS for ut and then head to bed. Gotta wake up at 615am tmr :( Goodnight world!

Isaac, I love you. Okay I bet you didn't regret reading this post dummy! Goodnight (: adn your photography rock big time but I rock more!

2008-10-31T04:45:00.004+08:00

I tried to sleep, instead, I lie awake staring and stoning. I know what I should do, but I dont cos everything seems too perfect. It never hurt that much.

2008-10-26T12:55:00.016+08:00

Helloooo there :D Okay apparently, I didn't head to church again cos I well kinda intentionally/unintentionally woke up late. haha Well that's cos I'll be announcing my leaving of CP like pretty much next week and today they are gonna have some ministry talk, so I figured I might as well stay home right? :S Then thereafter it'll be visiting and visiting of churches non stop! It kinda feel sad to be leaving CP cos I never thought I'll reach a point where I've to do that. Sigh.

Okay anyway, caught up with my sexy people yesterday. Jasper, Steph and Vanda :D There was like a lot of bitching I must say and thereafter a lot of camwhoring at Dennis's pub where we played a game of "I have never..." as introduced by stephanie and some shocking truths were out. LOL cool game I must say and it gets pretty dirty. So if you wanna play, you have to be daring enough to tell the truth haha. And vanda and me sang some songs there too. It's been so long my friends, where we do stuff like that. And now I shall let the photos do the talking :D Really missed you people alot! Meet up again!

I really love this pic of them, I don't know why? haha

And thanks keith for dropping by to fetch us home. haha you rock :D cos of you I saved cab fare! LOL

Okay finally, I finished my pp poster and printed it yay! I just gotta go memorize the points for the presentation on Thursday hope all goes well. So scary la! imagine 3 facilitators infront of you :O Oh well.

Just now, I was looking thru some pictures of some people on friendster then suddenly I felt so depressed. Don't know why man. Haven't really felt like these before. I know you're supposed to love yourself and the way you look and blah, blah blah... But I still can't help it and I wanna ask God why doesnt he create me to be a little more these and that. HAHA okay crap la, Don't know why man. :( Okay nvm, i'm retarded!

And.... Hopefully Mummy will bring me buy my running shoes tomorrow so I can start running this week and lose some weight. I tell you I'm damn motivated! Yes! I will run, I promised and reach my ideal weight of 46kg. Okay try la, everything in life must try! Ok i don't know what I'm blabbling about.

Okay, time to go. Isaac's gonna kill me. Off to bathe :D cya soon! Love Love

2008-10-24T00:17:00.005+08:00

Haven't taken a retarded photo for soooo long, LOL. Photo of the day! LOL

1. Had a great catchup with Kerin, Denise & Cly jus now (:

2. Decided to leave CP for good, Pointless in staying on

3. Will be intending to visit Hope of God!

4. Finally, cleared the air with someone (:

5. If you need a listening ear, I'll still be here

6. Gosh! It's 1225am and I haven't edited my pp poster which I've to print by tomorrow

7. I think I will at least sleep at 2am :(

8. Cos I'm still blogging

9. Messaged Isaac around 1hr ago, no reply :(

10. He's either asleep or playing Fable II

11. He's stupid new xbox game

12. Fable II is No. 1 Boyfriend stealer :S

13. Yes Isaac, good for you to know if you're reading this.

14. I repeat FABLE II is No.1 Bfriend stealer! Rarrw!

15. Damn happy, get to go out with the girls on Monday

16. Mind's Cafe, makes your minds goooo wheeee!

17. Finally catching up with Charmaine aft 100000days (:

18. Just like the old times on coming Saturday

19. Jasper, Me, Samantha, Steph and Vanda!

20. Feel like rebonding my hair, but nooooo.

21. I'm still blogging which is bad

22. Supposed to hurry edit my poster

23. Okay going soon after 7 more posts!

24. My pretty BF top just got delivered :D

25. Tmr is bloody PHP, freaking stoning time!

26. I hope I change group, don't like esp xx & xy

27. Sorry girls, tmr I ain't wearing blue/pink, cos I wearing black :S

28. My W66M class still as boring as ever

29. Even if I self-entertain it doesn't help. Yes that bad!

30. The weather is sooo nice, but I've to force myself to stay awake :(

Okayyyyy, done posting (: Love you people! Thanks for reading. Goodnights (:

2008-10-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

I received your message today, I didn't know how should I react so I didn't reply. I know you do read my blog, so you'll probably know this is for you. I seriously dunno what's up.

Sometimes you're all nice, wanting to meet up and stuff and just being there as a listening ear and talking alot and the next when I see you in school? you bloody freaking just turn away when you can and act like you dont see me at all. This isn't the first by the way. The other time at the interchange when I offered to ask you to queue, you stare at me and walk away. I seriously don't know how should I react?

Yea, I do read your blog and if you're still angry at me for whatever way I treated you why do you still bother to text me after all these while? If you still hold on to that anger why do you still insist on continuing this friendship when I suggested not contacting is the best and this way it will be easier for you.

If everything is about pleasing God and you really wanna do that, shouldn't you not hold the grudges in you and when you see us tgt, shouldnt you just smile and walk away instead of showing a black face? I might as well act like I don't know you in future if that's what you really want.

When some people tell me how much they dislike you, I spoke up for you telling them once they know you better you aren't like that. Now I'm not even sure if I'm right. The attitude you're giving I totally can't comprehend. Maybe you'll say its just you. Well be it then. You might get offended or pissed after reading this, but I just wanna let you know its becos I can't act like I don't care abt that attitude and just to let you know. Maybe you can tell me what I should fucking do? You takecare then.

2008-10-22T14:53:00.010+08:00

Glad that everything is alright now (: I hope that everything would be fine.

He finally cut his hair, hahaha kinda cool huh? I like la, really (:

I really love wednesdays! Start off the day feeling great, cos I get to wake up late, don't have to think about school and able to go out. Great huh? :D

I need to complete my pp poster! It's finally done. But I've got lots of touch up to do like edit, edit and more edit cos it's still too wordy and I need to finish up before Friday and print it for preparation next week for the presentation :( How? Thanks Isaac for helping me to cut down even more words (: But I still need to cut down :S I shall finish it by tonight I swearrrrr!

Anyway some randomness, I'm finally going to finish my "Snow flower and the secret fan" Book already :D yay! Its really a very interesting book and touching too. If you've the time, do check it out (: And recently someone went to submit me in some Hey Gorgeous contest thing. I still have yet to find out who is it? Seeing some comments over there is really indeed scary. Just hope no one deframes me over there :S

Okay I'm off to Isaac's house cos he wants me to play some NEW GAME that he just ordered. Don't know what's so interesting abt it also? LOL. Goodbye people! (: Love Love!

Here are some photos that I recently took. Enojoy (:

2008-10-18T23:24:00.005+08:00

When she told me, 3 years and the comparisons, all I can think is I'm fucking weak, yes I am. I can't even stop something. I don't know how to overcome it, its rather pointless.

2008-10-18T10:54:00.006+08:00

Omg, Eeeeew horrible eyebags. Damn it! :(

Anyway, out with the girlfriend yesterday aft probably a few weeks to a month. Risha couldn't join us :( Hope you're feeling alright babe (: That girl shopped way more than me. haha We headed to the SMU flea market where she bought 3 things and I bought none. Aren't I good? LOL. I didn't really shop much yesterday, maybe cos I was carrying my laptop so I wasn't in the mood too, or probably I was too sick of shopping alr. haha

I managed to get 2 necklaces & 1 ring at diva and also a bra & sunglasses at club marc! yay! finally I've sunglasses hahaha. They were having a "Really huge sale" or at least that was what it was called. So as usual we camwhored, gossip, gossip and gossip hahahahha. It's really cool to go out with her cos there's the neverending nonsense and her retardedness. I remember she saying some retarded stuff yst but I can't recall. I should introduce her to all of you one day, then ya'll will know what I mean. LOL right gf? :D

And we went Clarke quay yesterday, decided to head there to chill and relaxed, cos its a long time since I've been there and that place definitely bring back memories. I told gf she would call me crazy after I told her something regarding ClarkeQuay and she really did. But I really can't help it, it kinda suck. (ok I bet none of you know what I'm blabbering about! nvm my gf understands :D) And suddenly on the bus ride home I wanted to write some stuff down on paper which I did. Okay not important!

So anyway I'm supposed to go tanning with the bestfriend, but I'm too lazy and I suggested going to some flea market! haha shop again! oh well. But she's replying like how my grandmother walks -.-

And Isaac is soooo busy but he claims its me. It seems like I haven't seen him for a very long time although I just did yesterday LOL. he and his busy photography competition tsk. okay hope he wins :D Love ya! Hurry call me when you finish! ok he won't be seeing this also so nvm

Alright! Finally blogged after superduper long. hahahha okay off I go! vanda's finally awake! Oh yes do remember to visit adoreandadmire.blogspot.com okay, selling stuff! yay! Love you guys :D

2008-10-15T01:51:00.006+08:00

Its 159am on a Tues, tmr's wed (no school), that explains why I'm awake.
If Isaac sees this, he is going to question me & then strangle me tmr :S
Cos' I told him on msn I'm gonna sleep already but I haven't!
Sorry baby! I got the urge to blog (:
To everyone out there. I promise to blog more often okay, will come back with more pictures & words
I really love my top and cap in the above picture, wore it to sch on Monday :D
Everyone only know how to ask Why, Why I wear like that?
Classmates asks why I wanna act jap? "I never okay!"
Matthew, my classmate is in love with my bag :D yay!
Love my new bag which I carried tgt with the outfit, but me, myself not used to my outfit also. LOL
I've been selling stuff, go visit jac-liveandlove.livejournal.com :D
You all better see, not I'll keeeeel ya'll understand :D
My online clothes came today! I'm overly happy
Cos' it fits perfectly and its damn nice (:
Melody's as well. ok Duh! -.- she ordered with me.
she better not threatened or call me my chinese name, if not I'll wear her top :p
I still need to sell more stuff to get more money and buy more stuff, so please support jac okay :o
I want to change my songs playlist on this boring blog, but I'm lazy
okay I wanna blog about 31 things, cos got 31 days what! so I left another 12.
Isaaac Lim, I miss you even though I see you almost everyday. you rock :D
I miss alot of people but I've no time to meet them. Booooo! to that!
People like vanda, dawn, jasper, fran, hunyao, maine, risha, chris, meishi, sybil, yuikting & fangying!
aiya, sorry if I miss your name out if you see this tell me la, then i edit la? okay too many misses alr la!
Tomorrow I gonna camwhore like mad but for a purpose la, to sell my clothes away!
And Isaac says he want to cook me breakfast, dunno true anot?
and he keeps asking me bake muffins at his house! okay la I don't mind
Ehh! bloody hell my pp poster stil stuck, God help me la! Isaac also help me la
Wahhh! today web app ut FUCKing hard. I die already :( Like really FUCKing dead, I swear.
Read thru also no use, I hopeless don't understand anything at all. Yes I repeat! ANYTHING!
Note* I'm not so uncouth anymore I only use FUCK twice in no.27 & tt's cos I'm very angry :(
Its 218am and I've blogged abt 31things and I'm super tired. So off I go to bed :D

Sweet dreams to all my lovelies, thanks for reading love ya'll :D

2008-10-04T01:51:00.004+08:00

Right now, it feels like that. Am I missing something better?

I don't know, or rather I don't care.

Finally went to St. James to club after "A Gazillion years!" for the first time on Tuesday but apparently someone doesn't like me too :( Okayyy! But its not like i go once a week :( Vanda was there tooo :D It was really fun I must say, brings back memories; lots of them like dancing with some people HAHAHAHA (vanda if u're reading you should know who I'm talking about) and I really miss having fun with this girl. I reached home at 4plus until my misery started :(

Had been sick these pass 3 days. The doc says its gastrict flu and suspects appendiscitis (don't know how to spell it) I just highly doubt she's wrong, but the pain has been On and Off but def better now (: Thanks Isaac and mummy and daddy and grandma whose been taking care of me :D Love you people! But Isaac's the sweetest la still feed me porridge. hahahhaa omgawd! I sound so spoiled like a kid! Its just once la, everyone has their sick days too.

Okay being sick really sucks, nothing much can be done. So many things on my mind now. Thank God I did a little of the pp poster already and started on the Toddler's dance ppt but haven't studied for UT on Monday. God please help me! :( I feeel so stressed suddenly. Recently I even took up a pri 5 tuition and now her exam's nearby and I just got so many things to do. I really hope I wouldn't fall sick again and miss school.

On a happier note, I've finished Gossip Girl season 1. Can't wait to watch season 2 when Isaac helps me download. Thanks my dear :D

And hopefully Marie is feeling better now. If you happened to read this, Cheer up babe. If its meant to be, all will go back well :D You need to relaxed a little! Huggs:D

Goodnight world! Love you people! (:

2008-09-24T05:01:00.002+08:00

5am in the morning. Omgawd! I was watching gossipgirls (A really great drama, yea I'm kind of slow in figuring that out.) And now when I've finished I cant sleep.

So many thoughts running thru my head. Blog hopping reading thru different people's life. Day in, day out happy moments, sad moments. Life seems to go in circle and it really sucks. I don't know what I really want. Maybe I know it, but I just am living in self-denial.

Am I really worth it?

2008-09-22T23:04:00.010+08:00

My other love besides Isaac who is also called Isaac LOL.

He's super duper cute la, likes to smile at me & looks away heh.

MoodCheck: Fucking pissed!

Okay! anyway my day was alright, pretty alright la, cos I had enough sleep till 130pm cos I didn't go to school. heh. Couldn't wake up. Okay I felt damn bad, like really damn damn bad. So I promise myself I won't do it again not until after the 6th week :(

Oh yes! Finally I also got myself a new pair of havanians the dark green metallic kind of colour after contemplating for God knows how long. But still kinda expensive, $40 even after the discount :( But well, I really love it. So that adds up to the list of the amount of money of about $150 which I acutally owe mummy :S Die la, die! Along with my other blog shopping expenses borrowed from mum. So there goes $150 off my pay from Guess & Comex :( which isn't really good cos 20% of it would actually go to CPF damn it.

I'm also getting a wallet this week, supposedly the one from Guess which is $75.90 :O and I just saw a Liz Clairborne one for $50 so I really don't know. Well I shall decide by this week and then it'll be yay! to my new wallet :D I've got other wishlists as well, I must say its never ending haha.

Okay, so as I was saying my day was pretty alright until just now about 1hr ago, my brother freaking pissed me off. I was happily watching my television when he came and fucking annoyed me by telling my mum "I'm not as spoiled as her!" (her referring to me) I swear I could have slapped his face at that point in time, which obviously I didn't cos I'm not so uncultured and I'll probably end up getting bruises all over my face, which is a very bad idea!

So all I did was scream ALOUD, (trust me, it was Damn loud so that he can hear it) "I swear I'm gonna burn his room down and his hair as well!" okay yes thats how pissed off I am. But once again that is an exaggeration cos I can't really do that right? So that leaves me with my blood boiling in me! FUCK! okay sorry just had to get it off me. UGH!

Adding on to my pissed off list, is this damned faci, who has already gave me 2 C's and is half the time super sacarstic and says things like "Please think before you speak!" Which apparently she likes to contradicts herself. Arrrggghhh! nvm I'm not gonna repeat myself with the whole story cos I swear I will shout at anyone who comes and talk to me now. Yes that's how angry I am! So I just emailed her by saying "Please THINK before you grade me!" along with other stuff. I just hope she can think man, gosh! It's not like I don't bloody put in any effort.

Okay sorry for boring everyone with my Angry moments. You can see how pissed I am okay JAC! Enough already!

On a happier note, I'm meeting Vanda to go out for a movie and shopping this Thursday after about 93456773days! I swear I'm really happy and it does cheer me up a teeny weeny bit after being so pissed! I bet she doesn't know I actually miss her "THAT MUCH LA!" I missed her so much that I ask her to hug me and made her do it on Sunday when she left which I normally don't do it! haha, okay soooo looking forward to Thursday just hope her dance practice doesn't suddenly come up!

I'm meeting so many different people this week, haha meeting fangying on wednesday! she says she needs to shop! okay which means I need to control my spending :(

Okay, Gotta go and sleep already its 1137pm! and I gotta wake up at 640AM! Okay this is random, but Isaac I think you rock at photography yay! I love you :D haha. And this is also so random but who cares? I so so so love this picture with girlfriend and I think its the best one out of all that shows me wearing specs! Sorry Old picture but I did said I was going to wait for gf to send me the ones on her phone! haha. Anyway this means I need new photos! Soon soon with fangying and vanda :D

Okay, I got UT tomorrow and I read thru both 6ps with LianKiat at vivo just now with understanding it as well! Just hope I can at least get a B. I'm praying real hard :D Okay goodbye earth Love you people!

2008-09-17T22:53:00.004+08:00

Decided to unprivate my blog (: But I may or may not private it back again. HAHA! cos I'm just not a person who loves having so many people knowing about what goes on in my everyday life.

Anyway caught Step Brothers with girlfriend today. I must say it was rather a not so fantastic show after all except for some parts which were funny. But a kinda sick show afterall. I'll give it about 2.5/5 stars. Anyway we went shopping too except that I did most of the shopping and now I'm broke :( haha and Risha, I miss you :D and especially Vanda Seetoh gosh! her dance revolves around her la :(

Decided to wake up early today to meet Isaac to go to school today (: Aren't I great? hahahha and sybil says its becos of the power of love LOL. crap la! And now I'm as usal waiting for Miss sybil, OMG! she's always making me wait for her cos of her stupid ws! Damn slow la, hungryyyyy like mad okay? and today's module suck big time some PHP coding module can die man! :(

And I think I actually do look quite nice in specs, but the one in gf's phone looks nicer. So I shall upload them when she sends me (: But too bad Isaac think it isn't really nice hahaha. Maybe I should go get the specs :D

Alright, I'm off to eat now :D yay! she's finally done. Goodbye world :D

2008-09-17T05:24:00.010+08:00

"Advice is what we ask for when we

alreadyknow the answer but wish we didn't."

I think the statement above is really true and many times in our life we already know the answers we are looking for, but we dare not accept it and still continue on struggling. Countless times, I fall prey to that.

Time Check: 529am

Mood Check: Stupid sinus ruined my sleep and feeling like crap, Hours ago, day ruined. Clueless.

Okay, fuck la. Seriously. Oh whatever, I should probably stop swearing.

Thank God I don't have school today if not I'll be the 'girl with the heaviest eye bags in school' I'm not so lame as to stay up till this hour to blog some stuff that I feel like ranting out and quite insignificant, that's cos I tried sleeping hours wayyyy back but I ended up having sinus and used up the whole box of tissue and thus not able to sleep. So why not blog instead? And finally I finished doing my blog by my own effort thanks to the Webmultimedia module which I was never able to do so. HAHA! So what do you guys think? Except that I need help for the ending off part which I still don't know how to. Any kind soul would like to teach me? :D

Some photos with the girls which I haven't uploaded (:

Goodnight world, I'm off to bed with a very bad sinus :(

2008-09-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

I don't know why these few days I've the urge to blog so much. But when I actually do start penning down my thoughts, my mind blanks out. Some thoughts that can't be written down cos nothing seems to be coming out, or rather things that wants to come out don't.

At times, life has so much expectations of you that it is better off not expecting so much least you fail and get disappointed at the end of the day and at times you know certain things that's happening, but you can't really do anything abt it cos you don't know what exactly to do and all you can do is just to hold a doubt in you for as long as eternity. Well, that's life for you, once you make a wrong decision or an action it changes everything. I wonder did I even make sense in what I just typed. Even if it doesn't, I guess that's just what I feel and it is the best way I can type that out. haha It's just 'Me and one of my thoughts running thru my head blogging days' Oh well.

I really really hate school and I can't wait to get over and done with the IT modules. Ugh, damn depressing. I'm only looking forward to school to see people whom I enjoy talking to in school without them I think I'll be dead by now. Fuck it, I shall just head to bed. Nights world.

2008-09-11T14:41:00.013+08:00

Sometimes, just sometimes its really good to just

stop living for a second to die in ur thoughts & stop

being able to feel what you're actually going thru.

Love remains the same by Gavin Rossdale, this song introduced to me a few days ago is indeed really very nice. Haven't got the chance to get the song. So anyone out there if you've the song do sent me (: I know this is random, but i've the urge to unprivatise my blog. Haha will see how.

Had the chance to meet up with my Girls on Monday,

we had a great catchup. Definitely it was one of the days

since such a long time when I had a pretty good laugh,

thanks to girlfriend who was half the time the 'Joke' heh.

Wahh, so pretty la! haha

Some retarded photos HAHAHAHA! enjoy :D

And as usual, I think she's the most retarded la, hahahaha!

And know what I've noticed from all these retarded shots? There's only retarded shots of Risha and me, don't even consists any of Fran! She only take glamour shots la! that girl never once like to take retarded pictures of herself. Don't know paiseh what also? Urmmm yea she does take but hides it in her computer and never sent me any to show the world hahahah. Eh fran, please la. Chill abit! Learn to be retarded openly can? hahaha

My two favourite shots of that day, Damn cool la! :D

Anyway, yesterday I had no school haha and just nice, it was Isaac's and my 2nd month anniversary and we went rollerblading after him pestering me to go for a long long time. haha It was really cute watching him blade heh. After what happened yesterday I doubt he'll ask me to go blade soon again. hahahhaha then after that we had dinner at some Borsch restaurat(: Love you babbyy. Sorry for being so quiet sometimes.

Okay as for school, it really sucks esp for this module PHP! I was so happy when I heard that there isn't any Java this semester. But to my horrer php has codings to do as well -.- Damn it la! another 16weeks of confusion and boredness and wanting to die in class :( God, please help me man! I guess I'll have to do some revision and research on php this weekend sighhhh :/I've tried paying attention but seriously nothing is going to my brain man. How? Someone teach me can?!! yuikting! hahaha and I've got an awfully quiet class man :( sighh thank God for melody though :D haha It's already the 2nd week but still nobody's hyped up die la, so how can I ever be hyper. Really so different from W67R la. :(

And I'm reading this book by Lisa See now. 'Snow flower and the secret fan' Really a nice book, exciting and sad. hahahaha okay this is so random. But really it is a very interesting book. Go read it up :D

Alright I should stop blogging. Gosh! it has been so long since I blogged soooooo long with so many pictures. okay and school has ended long time ago. Goodbye world :D

There are just so many things that one has to face in life, I'm definitely part of this lifestyle. God, please give me a sign.

Issac's work, love it (:

2008-09-06T18:53:00.005+08:00

Sick, feeling way better now.

But it's not good to stay home the entire day, your mind wonders ALOT and it scares the hell outta you.

On a lighter note, caught 2 movies yesterday with fangying. Make it happen & forgetting Sarah Marshell. Two really great shows. It's been almost a year since we last hang out tgt doing stuff, although we're studying in the same school, we always didnt have time to meet. It was great catch up (:

2008-09-03T13:13:00.006+08:00

3 weeks just passed like that. I dont' know if it was fruitful or not. But out of the 22days, I spent 12 days working. So yea maybe it was kinda okay, at least i'll have cash to buy things that I haven't been buying 'Clothes' haha. Through work, gotta know esther, regine and cynthia a little better. Regine's not as crazy as she looks though. But.... haha. As well as Darryl, Sybil & kaydence (one of my sem 2 classmate's friend) haha we slacked alot tgt. Got the chance to talk to darryl abit more, but sometimes I just don't get you... you know what I mean? hmmm but all is well now. Thanks for the mac that 2 days (: and that sybil is one indescibable kid, ask her to accompany me slack and she's like "Dont want la, later the boss scold" sybil! you damn re tarded la. Anyway Comex is really f.up cannot stand working there, okay maybe not Comex is the Eastgear company la. The girls there, I find are rather vain and bitchy (syb, you'll agree right?) haha work also must put fake eyelashes, so long somemore? Like seriously Wtf. la? okay i should probably stop swearing!

Okay, and I need to go on a diet I swear, have been eating like sooooo much, Now wed's i've no school! maybe i should take the chance to excercise like twice a week and stop eating so much! I should go back to my eat once a meal a day diet again (:

Anyway, really gonna miss some of the girls in W67R especially yuikting :( we must frequently meet up to eat okay hee hee! yes and mel's still in my class yay! haha

Anw, glad that everything's been cleared up. I realized that I didnt cry so much for someone before. Just hope that this last chance would work out. I love you alot.

Okay gotta end here. Shall blog when I'm freee (: Goodbye world!

2008-08-21T00:19:00.003+08:00

Woww, 17days since I last blogged. Especially now, I'm working for some 'Guess Roadshow' job and when I reach home, I'm dead tired. Work has been tiring, but fulfilling. At least I'm earning some cash, better than nothing. Next week Comex, God please help me to survive man, I neeeeeeed sleep! :o

Anyway, I found out that Isaac is even more retarded than me, given that others say I'm rather cranky! haha butttttt you should meet Isaaac, but doubt he'll act insane infront of people he doesn't really know well. But oh well, I love his retarededness haha. Don't worry la okay, if you're reading this, dont worry baby, I wont get bored of you so easily la kay? hahaha I can't get enough of you. you is love huggs (: But I think that you still dont think that seeing each other is already really happy for me? (:

Anyway moving on, I'm convinced of changing church. Just that I don't know when to leave and where to leave to, so I shall just wait and see how it is.

okay, time to sleeeeeeep! nighs lovely people. (: and I misss alot of people.

2008-08-04T12:48:00.004+08:00

One word to describe everything I'm facing
in life right now, Dilemma. Everything has

to come so coincidentally. It feels quite horrible.

Too many choices, too many mistakes.

Maybe, I've gone too far away from God.

2008-08-02T08:41:00.009+08:00

To love you when you're right

Love you when you're wrong

Love you when you're weak

Love you when you're strong

Take you higher

when the world got you feeling low

It is 845 am in the morning and I got awoken up by sleeping in a very uncomfortable position after the whole night, haha cos I fell asleep on my laptop! So after typing all these, I shall head back to bed, as I have dance at 12pm and would be out the whole day and end up getting very very sleepy. Yay! there's a BBQ later at aunty Joreen's house!

Anyway, yesterday was cool, kinda cool la, for celebrating Xinyan's bday! Sharon is sooooo sweet haha. But damn broke now and it was the first Friday that I've gone home so early considering it to be 1am, cos michelle had to leave as well. haha kinda boring though but I guess I was tired and ended up falling asleep LOL. The dinner at the indonesian restaurant, some riverside thing at clarkequay was not too bad la! $20 per person! and thereafter we went to some Sheeeshaaaaa place also in clarke quay (which I don't think I spelt it correctly) except we didnt sheesha, we went there for drinks and I chose the 1992 Harry's drink thingy. It was kinda weird but at the same time it was nice, weird combination. I must say Daryl was pretty weird, really damn weird since the last time I saw him do something crazy. I shall leave the details out, ask me if you want :D And so it was a good catchup with te W35A people. More of them to come during the holidays. Sybil! and you better come, if not I'll hate you as much as I can, leaving me yesterday :(

Yay! I feel so carefree now! my pp and ut's are over :D wheeeee I can do anything I like now until next semester starts. I know I haven't been putting enough effort especially for my ut's. Didnt study at all for most of them so it won't be very surprising when the GPA comes out. I shall just put in a hundred times more effort next sem, I swear! So you'll see less of me asking you people to go out already cos studies will be my priorities. HAHA omg! I sound like a study geek! oh well, I don't care (:

Okay, I can't wait for sunday, gonna have a picnic with my dear boy (: haha except for his kinda cool but retarded idea of going over is house at 6am in the morning to be his pillow. I don't even know if I can wake up laaaaaa? We'll see. Okay Love youuu baby (: Till tomorrow, then I shall see you again!

and I love the rest of you tooo, esp the ones I haven't been seeing which only half of them know this thing exists! I mis ya'll! haha and gonna see vanda later after 12 days, think its the longest record. okayyyyy! Shall stop writing here for now. Have a good day (:

2008-07-29T14:32:00.009+08:00

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made

They can take the music that we'll never play

All the broken dreams, take everything

Just take it away but they can never have yesterday

They can take the future that we'll never know

They can take the places that we said we will go

All the broken dreams, take everything

Just take it away but they can never have yesterday

Some random pictures!!!

School's gonna end in another 10 more school days! YAY! then there will be 3weeks of holidays. Short but oh well, better than nothing (: I really need a break man, before I collapsed and die :O haha, okayy such exaggeration. But I swear I really hate school because of bloody year 2 :( Just hope that I'll be more hardworking during semester 2 and get more A's and I'll stop being constantly late. Hopefully, I don't have to retake any modules tooooo.

Okay, pp is due in 3more days, Hopefully I can complete it asap! I'm just so horrible at doing reports like that. Gosh! Thanks baby for helping me out alottttttttt! haha maybe without your help I would still be in despair today! Well, at least i'm not in sooooo much despair now. HAHA

Yes! Yes! Yes! Friday's my last ut, whooohoooo! I'm so gonna mug on thursday so that at least I can pull up my grades :D

Anyway, Kinda excited to go out with the classmates from last semester this Friday to celebrate XY's Bday. Which also means I'm either clubbing or pubbing on Friday. haha It's really been sooooo long since I last went there after ever since being with Isaac. See! I don't go becos of you unless I've a celebration or something. I also can't wait to do stuff during the 3 weeks holidays! Hope to catchup with people I haven't being seeing haha :D

and yay! vanda's back today. I'm sooooo gonna meet her up man. Miss her alottttt although she's only gone for 6days, haha.

Guess, I'm feeling okay and cool now, after not feeling so great the past few days, Hope everything goes as well as I hope (:

Shall end here. Goodbye my darlings :D

2008-07-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

Note to self: I'm the creator of my own disappointments.

2008-07-21T00:24:00.014+08:00

When I think about it, a fear inside of me grows. What if everything just falls apart? Did I come to a decision too quickly. Yes, I'm human after all, I've my insecurities and though it seems I'm all smiles day in, day out, but my weakness, my imperfections still stays with me, Fuck it.

Anyway caught 'Wedding daze' with vanda and jerome just now :D Humourous storyline. 2 complete strangers get married. Cool huhh? that definitely can't happen in reality haha. But its kinda ironic though, sometimes the more you know about a person, the more you find that you 2 are so incompatible & then that's it. So who knows? sometimes its better not knowing so much. Rigghhhht?

Okay, lots of ut's this week Monday, thursday and friday. Boooo! and pp still not finished.Which means, I'm gonnna be really busy! But my baby is sooo sweet, he's helping me out with it. Thanks darling :D

Anyway I'm so irritated and turn off by people who just doesnt get THE POINT! It's seriously so annoying okay? They just keep trying and trying even when you say you dont know. Gosh! wonder what's wrong with these people. So what really happened was one of my friend asked me to work with him and I replied I can't! and I'l get back to him cos I'm too busy and he just goes on and on asking me to come down for an interview. HE JUST DOESNT FUCKING GET THE POINT THAT I'M BUSY and he goes on and on. This is a little conversation to show how anoying is he, and just doesnt give up. Gosh! (Notice how many times I say cannot until the last part I got really fed up!)

jacintha.

cannot

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
u next week cannot come?

jacintha. says:
cannot

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
friday sat sun one day also cannot ar?

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
at orchard leh

jacintha. says:
cannot

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
how come?

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
but ask u work if u got time will u

jacintha. says:
No time la, sure cannot

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
woot

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
u come then i teach u ok?

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
i will wait for u ok?

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
btw u next month not free ar?

jacintha. says:
Omg, Don't wait. you don't get it? I'm not free, really very busy

jacintha. says:
i alr tell u I don't know when, so forget about it, you dont have to wait.

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
lol i will work until veri long de

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
so will wait lol hehe

Seeeeee! retarded rightttt? Totally -.- Gosh, but guess what that's not the most retarded thing ever, he wants me to join him to work cos he wants me to go to some D&D with him. Wad the helllllll? Cos he says

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
cos there de girl i dare not play with it too much

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
later image not good not nice

Why Does My Sickness Come Now. says:
haha

Seriously right, its getting on my nerves!

Anyway, vanda's flying to Hk this thursday with kerin and clydia. Hope you have a greaaaat time babe. Have fun dancing okayy? I'm gonna miss you this weekend. Hurrrrrrryy back okayyy Love ya!

okayy, I shall end here its alr 131am blahhhh! ok love love goodnights :D

2008-07-16T15:39:00.011+08:00

I've totally given up on listening in class now, that explains why I'm blogging when the other team's are presenting, I really don't care anymore. I'm soooooo sick of school, I wonder why this has never happened to me during year 1. #%%%$^&^&^ Blah!

4days of school next semester! I think I really can't cope with 5 modules. The modules are really really fucked up, I mean seriously. Like I don't understand a single thing about my modules. Great work! I'm not suprised if I've to retake 'Finance and Accounting' anddddd.... so many other modules! then again I may not have a 4day week. I'm just praying and hoping I dont flunk it soooooo I'll try to read up all the 6p's before ut 4 and try understanding them. Which I think is going to be really a challenge 13 topics which I hardly know anything. God help me! and PP! on the other hand is crap tooo, so many things to do, I'm gonna die soon. hopefully I'll finish it soon. Would have to head down to Music Garage to snap pictures soon.

Finally dance is over. Great job girls for the really really cool dance and now I'm back to the little kids dancing thing. Why am I sooooo busy? okay maybe indeed its time management and I prolly suck at that anddddd, clydia is leaving church alr :( I'll miss you alot, you take good care okayyyy :D

Anyway, I'm watching a drama series called 'L Word' these days. Fangying introduced it to me, its a really cool lesbian show. You people should go catch a glimpse of it. It's hahahahhaha nice :D

Okay, anyway Isaac's really really sweet, his surprise for me being his gf was totally awesomeeeee! hee hee! He brought me to the cable car dinner thing at Harbourfront on the 10th of July! which he decided to change the day that I became his gf. hahaha! and there were like flowers for me, red wine (which I really don't know how to appreciate it) and really really coool fooooooood. But guess what? it costs $180 which up till now he still tells me that it only costs $80 haha how honest huhhh? So expensive la! But oh nvm! I love it! thanks babbyyy once again and I love ya alot! okay the place was tooo dark, so we didnt really took any pictures there but however we did take a video which I'm lazy to upload it, so I'll just upload the pictures which we took that day :D

Flowersssss!

Went to Sentosa after that :D

My two favourite pictures of the day (:

Love youuuuuuu! anyway some person by the name of Isaac Lim is going to work at Starbucks, which means I cant spent as much time with him Sheesh! so farrrrrr somemore CHANGI AIRPORT :( yes, you'll must be thinking he's crazy right? of all places there! Gosh! maybe so he can seee all the girls in the world there without me knowing, rightt rightt rigghhhhttt?!!!!! and he says its a test to see how far his gf would go to visit him? Sheesh! what a great reason! Oh well, I'll just have to end up being all lonely! :(

Was looking through my past pictures, haha and I found this one, really love it alot and it was taken at Charmaine's house. I miss ya alot babe, meet up soon (:

its 442pm, this explains why I hate the elective module even more, ending so late. Gosh! alright, gotta go now, goodbye people :D Love Love

2008-07-09T00:31:00.006+08:00

I have no idea what e 1st picture is actually about, but I just love it, the colours and everything, I'm like so into vintage photos now ya know. Deviant art is love :D haha go take a look! y'all will love it.

Anyway, everyone's asking me why havent I been updating??! tired la, uts, pp, dance and Boyfriend. hahaha. So i shall just update a part of my little, boring life now and head to bed. It's 1239am and I better make sure I'm gonna sleep soon if not I can really say goodbye to accounting lesson 12 in 8hrs time exactly! I shall let the photos speak for itself. Oh yes, good to have a bf whose good in photography heh, takes pretty/nice photos of you, even if the most unglam picture of you taken will be turned to "The picture of the year!" LOL

So yes, wondering what's all these bf thing? haha here's my darlingggg Love Love!

See, told ya'll he take great pictures :D haha.

and I took this :D whoa! Jac's such a cool photographer please? hahahhaa maybe he has been imparting to me his photography talent skills hahahaha, i knew it! so totally knew it LOL

hahahha, okay feeling sooooo #$@!!!!!!!! blahhh now, with school its such a biatchhh, (skipping school on thursday with isaac :D yay!) I seriously gotta put in more effort. The pp is not anywhere near finished, I'm so dead, I know I gotta start soon if not never. God help me! oh crap. Gotta tell myself to study for fri's ut as well :( arrrgh. If I still can a disgusting grade, I better quit RP! :(

As for the dance, it's really such a relieve, finally I can remember all 3 dance's steps now, thank God :D So tired and muscles ache everywhere. Almost a few weeks ago, I was whining abt not being able to definitely remember all 3 dance's steps and confusing between all 3 of them. But yay! no We did it :D and sam's so cute la, she's so happy that I can finally carry her now 6 times in a row without dropping her, I'm nicknamed muscle woman/the hulk now. hahaha Hope all goes well :D

Anyway, my dear isaac I know you can't do anything, neither can I be of any help in solving your problem, really feel so bad. I just hope you won't be feeling so sad the whole entire time over that okay, if not I can't help feeling really sad and bothered too. I'll try to think of something as well okay. please cheer up. I love you (: I'm hope the 2 of you will be okay sooon, yes I'm sure it will! :D

okayy, gosh! i'm bound to sleep in class tomorrow, goodnight lovable people reading this :D

2008-06-30T17:54:00.006+08:00

Sorrry, totally couldn't fulfill your b'day wish. I guess I just cant let history repeat itself. Hope you'll move on and do fine without me. Sometimes, I dont really understand what u're trying to do? all the texting and stuff even when everything's over. Sigh Guess I've learnt some valuable lessons. For nowwwww, there's someone sweet, very sweettttttt :D heh. <3

Haven't been updating for awhile now, starting to get tired alr, haha. Anyway in school now, supposedly to be studying with liankiat & meiyi but kinda tired and LK's eating so I'll blog first. Had java ut just now, its a bitchhhhh! I wonder how I'll fare, although I still dont really know how to apply it but well, at least I read thru the 6p's yesterday. So hopefully my grade won't be too bad. B+ or C+ I'm kinda glad alr :D

Anyway, caught Get smart yst (: nice and humourous show, go catch it! I'll rate it 3/5 :D

Maxwell Smart (Steve Carell) is on a mission to thwart the latest plot for world domination by the evil crime syndicate known as KAOS. When the headquarters of U.S. spy agency Control is attacked and the identities of its agents compromised, the Chief (Alan Arkin) has no choice but to promote his ever-eager analyst Maxwell Smart, who has always dreamt of working in the field alongside stalwart superstar Agent 23 (Dwayne Johnson). Smart is partnered instead with the lovely-but-lethal veteran Agent 99 (Anne Hathaway). Given little field experience and even less time, Smart—armed with nothing but a few spy-tech gadgets and his unbridled enthusiasm—must thwart the doomsday plans of KAOS head Siegfried (Terance Stamp).

YES! I'm so proud of myself, I studied java yst, like managed to really sit down thru and read from problems 4 to 9 and understanding it. Went to spinelli's outside heeren with LK to study. haha and I may be dead, I really dont know cos there was this so called "Kind-hearted" man who was around his late 20's who kept wilingly wanting to help me share the power sockets and setting up of a wireless account. So I had to create an acct with his help on his laptop and I typed everything like my personal info such as address, email add and hp number on his laptop and it was being saved! Gosh! I really pray that he doesnt tries to do anything okay. :S LK even said he kept turning behind to look at us. dead! so dead!

Anyway, yesterday night was one of my worst nights ever, I went to bed at 1130 & only got to fell asleep at 2am, Gosh! i tossed & turned, played music, deleted messages till 1230 & I gave up. Went to call syb & we chatted for a little while till almost 115 and I continued tossing and turning till 2, finally slept. Cool thing is I woke up at 6am without even using any efforts :D Met isaac to go to school!

okay! Got a new top and a new bag $100 paid by mummy :D Love her totally, but gotta admit sometimes she's sooooo @#@$#$#%$%$&^* indescribable LOL. What apparently happened was that I stayed over at Issac's on Friday and I didnt call home so the next morning, I just message my dad saying sorry and stuff & that I fell asleep at my friend's place and Whoa! they were esp daddy was realy angry and asked me to stop giving excuses. Oh well! But on the same night they brought me to a japanese restaurant at clarke quay for dinner and I would say it was really quite an Expensive dinner and they were'nt even angry anymore. Adding on, mum bought those stuff for me! I really didnt quite get it? O_o But who cares? they're damn nice to me, so that's very good and cool! haha even chatted with them abt some stuff like me having a boyfriend, hahaha but I can never hold a conversation longer than 15mins with them cos I'll get damn bored with their 'EVER SO COOL' advices. haha.

Alright, I shall blog till here, really sleepy, shall study for a little while before I head home. Goodbye world :D lovelove!

2008-06-24T23:26:00.003+08:00

Pardon my retarded post previously in the afternoon, I had sinus coming back and I couldnt work with my teamates :( Except for mel which I love alot, thanks girl for sharing the slides with me (: so yea blogged some rubbish. But I still feel something amiss these few days, so thus the emotions. I cant figure it out. If you know, tell me (:

1128pm, I've got like 2 mins to blog supposedly. I told ting I'm gonna sleep at 11 and then I dragged on and on. LOL haha I wonder when can I ever fulfill my wish of sleeping around 10ish? haha Never I guess! unless I'm really so sleepy.

Anyway, back from tuition today and I caught 'JUST FOR LAUGHS' on the bus. For the first time ever after tuition, I didnt sleep on the bus. haha and yea I just love that show on Tv mobile, its soooo retardedly funny where they come out with stupid plans to trick people. HAHA But I love it :D

Oh anyway 1.5hrs of tuition was changed to 1hr only just now cos my kid was vommiting. Poor little kid of mine :( I think she ate the wrong food though! so yea back home early.

Anyway, recently met Marie! Isaac's bestfriend. She's really awesome, Cool to hang out with her! haha Well, anyway I feel really sad for the both of them. Why on earth are there such retarded people? hmmm talk about trust! oh well, its not for me to judge anything though. Just hope you 2 hang in there (:

OH! and just some thinking going through my brain, its really sad when you're friends, good friends and when you dont feel the same for the other party, the friendship is then ruined, or rather isnt the same anymore. Why can't people be more mature as to not lose the friendship? It happened before and just hope history doesnt repeats itself. And I'm like thinking and thinking abt stuff, But I'd rather not. Whatever! okay nevermind.

Goodnight people, love ya (:

2008-06-24T13:41:00.004+08:00

I think school really sucks :( I need a life man, I feeeeling so lethargic and just weird. Random post. Gosh! How I wish some person would just stab me in the back now.

Goodbye!

2008-06-23T13:30:00.014+08:00

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more,
no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family (2nd time: ah, la happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

One of my favourite songs, I'm yours by Jason Mraz (:

E66M, elective class some BBQ! love love.

Anyway, I'm really lazy to blog nowadays :( haha, so I guess my post's gonna get shorter & shorter really soon. LOL oh well! and I'm quite sick of going out alr, so I shall jus head home today after school! And yes, catch some sleep and study for ut 3. Well hopefully I'll do it. Anyway, today school is really cool, cos I finally understand something in Data communications and Networking's module HAHA (: yay! Thus, I'm in a happier mood. But yuikting was kinda emoing, dunno what to do also. So had to leave her alone and she's like alone in the library now. Sigghhhh :( Hey girl, just hope you're alright :D guess everyone have their gloomy days.

Talking abt gloomy days, I had mine on Friday and Isaac's so sweet, he came to meet me and gave me cake, just to cheer me up haha thanks alot! felt better aft that (: And we never seem to watch any cool shows? haha All the sucky UN-SCARY cool shows :( Blah blah blah

Anyway, I'm like obsessed with piercings again esp the NECK PIERCING! OMG! I think I'm gonna pierce it after 13July aft some dance stuff! yay :D it's really damn nice please? And the lip piercing is WOW too but I'm guessing I can never ever do it cos of mummy & daddy :( oh well. I'll just replace it with other piercings haha (:

HOT! HOT! HOT!

I shall end here (: takecare people. Love ya!

2008-06-18T22:51:00.010+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder about you and me. Trust issues, what if everything happens all over again?

I promise myself never ever to stay up till 3am in the morning to blog. You will definitely not go to school the next day as you are too tired. That's my mistake, and I feel all apologetic to myself now for missing school :( Also, never ever talk to so many people on msn when you tell yourself you have things to complete, if not your sleeping time will be pushed back HAHA so I'm gonna sleep at 1130pm today!

Anyway so today I woked up at around 1plus and Isaac forced me to go to his house , I was really nice even though it was raining but I agreed how nice of me huhh? Okay maybe it was the bak kwa that really tempted me into going haha, and I had to cab there cos the rain stopped and it decided to come back. Isaac you better treat me nicer. haha We watched kung fu panda on his com. I think that his house have this sleepy aura thing. Cos I never fail to fall asleep at his house whenever we watch films on his laptop. haha And we were debating about shoulders. haha he said I had bony shoulders and it was uncomfy and very hard where as his was all soft and comfy! Crap right? hahahaha Pardon Isaac, he's just weird as he has all these explanations which I do not know come from where. Spent around 3hrs plus there as I had to go for dance which becos of him and his sleepy aura house i was 1h45mins late plus he made me miss the 133 :( thanks to his very good idea of sitting on the floor thing. hahaha But okay you were nice to walk me to the bustop and walk back even though it was raining, for that I forgive you ok (: LOL and thanks for writing finish the song for me. Not bad la, you're quite sweet LOL (: Eh but that song you never used it for other girls huhh? hahahaha okay kidding! haha. And the keychain thing, I have weird thoughts abt you giving it to me based on your explanation haha Dont ask me why okay :D but thanks anyway. Anw do cheer up (: if you really need someone when you're very very bored, look for me. Okay I know I'm very busy and everything but thats if you ARE REALLY VERY BORED AND GOING TO DIE, then i'll make time for you. haha and please stop having negative thoughts abt yourself. you rock the way you already are :D

Anyway so went for dance and we did the steps for history maker. For the first time in my life, I actually think the steps to the song is really nice and different. Becos its always the same so kinda boring. But I enjoyed myself dancing for the first time. I really loved dancing and also miss the Modern dance IG in school. But I guess its the environment that I really cant stand so decided to quit. Maybe I should take lessons outside. haha will see how (: okay then kerin fetched me home!

Fuck! tomorrow's java. Shit, im so dead okay :( anyway okay goodnight people. Love ya (: Oh! and for the first time ever in my life, Im gonna turn into bed all alone at home as mummy and daddy isn't back yet. Kinda scary i must say :O

Okay here are some of the pictures that I'm supposed to upload afew days ago (:

Kerin, jac, wt, keith & joyce (keith is super act cute please?)

Ms, jac, jer, sm

Ms, jac, jermel & forgot name girl! (Made 2 new friends Jermel & ... haha)

Ms, Sm, Forgot name, Jermel

The day 11/6 we went Zouk/Mos to club

Oh yes! this paragraph is for ting. Really thank God for her. She's really nice, always helping me, accompanying me and listening to my woes. We clicked really very fast even though its a wonder how she was 'Afraid' of me at first haha. Recalling back to the first week of school, we didnt noticed each other for the first few days as she was rather quiet and she thought I looked rather arrogant and unfriendly and that she wouldnt want to know a person like me. But according to her things started changing b/w us when she was laming around with Mayu with some cold jokes and when I heard it I was like WTH! so lame and I cant really remember what else did I say. And after afew days we started clicking tgt. Maybe cos she is rather hyper and crazy as me. haha. She's like maybe a little more retarded compared to me haha but I see the similarites. This girl has potential to be cranky LOL. But on a serious note, she's really one friend that I'll treasure even though we know each other for such a short period of time cos I can see she's really someone who is "REAL" unlike people whom I met in my sem 1 class. Anyway hey girl, please dont vent your anger on yourself or do stupid things okay. talk it out. Share with me. I cant promise I'll always be there, but I'll try. I'm one phone call away. Please do takecare of yourself too Love ya! oh and please stop hitting me, I'm gonna kill you soon I swear!

And I miss the bestfriend, VANDASEETOH :( she sucks la. Hopefully we are going out this friday :D

2008-06-18T00:49:00.009+08:00

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Love this song, (Always be my baby by David Cook) my addiction for now. The sadness, pain, hurt, and anger and everything else is starting to drift away, I can laugh and joke with him now. Hopefully, it will all end quickly (:

Second day of school, still sleepy, I'm starting to get all high in class again as compared to yesterday. I keep sleeping in class. LOL the module today wasn't that bad. But I felt quite bad, cos due to my tiredness I didnt contribute anything at all. "JACCCCC is such a bitchh!" I better buck up, as of tomorrow I will and must contribute (: Anyway, nothing much about school today. Tomorrow's module finance & accting sucks :( After school, went to visit granny, I think I've been such an unfillial grandchild. Shall visit her more often. Played with my cousin just now some drum/guitar game. Damn fun okay! I wanna buy the whole set 300bucks So cooool :D haha then ate dinner there and Home sweet home

Oh btw, camwhore with Syb in the train today LOL. Finally after knowing her for so many months and being all close this year we have peektures tgt. I love you babe (: And she said "Hope we can be more close ah!" dunno how true la. But we click really well and everything be it crap, problems we share She's one cool babe. Thank God for her. (: My 2008 is def better growing close to you! Although half the time I make fun of you, but you know I still love you right? haha just love seeing your retarded reactions. LOL :D Oh yes, and my dear girl, please stop doing what you're doing can? tsk tsk! '

Did some camwhoring with others too (:

Alicia & me (:

W67R girls, we clicked tgt really fast <3>

Anyway, Had a really fun and exciting as well as scary " HEART ATTACK" day yesterday (Mon 16/6). LOL went out with my 2 lovely gf's and MY DEAREST GF, 'Francesca' rented a car and sha and me were her first time passengers. LOL She was like so afraid of everything as it was raining and all. haha She concentrated on the road like... okay nvm the expression was priceless haha! And she kept jerking and stopping at first which made me feel like throwing up, haha but aft that she finally decided to speed and it was cool. Okay la GF, not bad for first timer hahaha. Faster go rent again k (: Oh yes and when it came to parking, it was hilariously funny! Sha and me had to keep looking out for her and she was like just so scared. Damn cute la you!

Okay, so GF was really nice (: she came and pick me up fron school. heh and so we set off for cinie and ate long john there, then wanted to catch a movie but there wasnt any nice ones, So i suggested we went to Eastcoast park to cycle. Well, only SHA and ME cycled in the end, cos fran.... tsk tsk Shall not elaborate go figure out yourself why my lovely gf didnt cycle with us (: And after cycling for abt an hour, sha's and my ass got tired, so we headed to mac for ice-scream! It really was like an eating day ok, and after icecream and camwhoring, we headed to Simpang Bedok for supper HAHAHAHA! had prata which was really horrible. Cheese, plain and banana prata SUCKS! The cheese prata was like eating a rock ok and according to Fran, which made sha and me laughed like there's no tmr tasted like vegetable. What a description RIGHT? hahahhaa The pictured aren't with me though when dear gf sends me alr, then I shall upload. By then, I was already damn high and I kept screaming and shouting and talking nonsence and sha went "Shut up la!" hahaha think they really cant stand my nonsence sometimes. But I just love to self-entertain haha. Camwhore even more and then Home sweet home at around 12plus (: And I think such a kuku head like fran, who doesnt know the road directions waste petrol only, cos we kept going round and round in circles. Damn funny please! haahaha Okay, so that's the end of the fun day I had with them and definitely one HILARIOUS day. LOL

Camwhoring in the dark is rather nice (:

Random shot 1

Random shot 2

Girlfriend!

okay omg its 330am and I'm going to bed now. Someone would probably say I lied abt going to sleep after msn. hahaha But sorry I cant sleep so I just had to blog LOL Okay, there's dance tmr! ahhhh :O bound to be going home late again :( Okay goodnights world. Love ya (:

Tomorrow will be a better day (:

2008-06-16T01:16:00.007+08:00

I feel like taking a break from the life I lead, run away to somewhere far away, I think I'm about to hide somewhere for a day alone, off my phone so no one can contact me and just to think through everything. So if anyone of you cant contact me you know why. haha But on a serious note, I think I'm sick and tired of compromising to certain people how they would want me to act in certain ways. I keep giving in, knowing that's not what I really want or really am comfortable with it, maybe that's why some people take advantage of that, knowing I'll keep quiet. Well, I'm not saying that how I am now is fake and that I am just putting on an act infront of everyone but I guess how I react to certain stuff may not necessarily conclude who I really am as a person. Like I'm all 'HAHA& Retardedly high' sometimes and some people may think that I am really outgoing, daring and all but I guess when it comes to certain stuff I'm like such an idiot. haha if that's the word to describe it. (well, that's if you know me well enuf) So, I guess I have to come to terms with how I really feel deep down. Maybe one thing I know Im positively sure abt myself. People who doesnt know me can conclude something abt me or bitchh or hate me whatever it is! I dont care. Cos I love who I am and the minority who doesnt even know me wont even matter in my life! (For those of you who doesnt understand what Im saying, forget it! I just feel like ranting whatever that comes to my mind, so dont ask me abt it Thanks)

I told everyone whom I was talking to on msn I was going to sleep, Yet as I log off msn, I just couldnt fall asleep, staring around my room isn't of any help at all. Blame it on my used to alr sleeping at 5am onwards during the hols :( Screwed up body clock. haha But I know... I can't help to think abt certain things. Damn it! school's tomorrow. Sigh :( But can't wait to see the classmates though and other loves of mine (:

Anyway, I shall just sum up my weekend and head to bed. I think I'm so totally going to die at school tmr :(

Friday afternoon, went to Isaac's house and we watched this stupid show "Joshua" hahaha it was supposed to be a horror film but guess what? (OH! and we spend almost 20mins just deciding what to watch, ended up it just sucks!) I laughed more than I got shocked lol and I was going on and on about how cute Joshua is. But Some idiot claims that I was retarded and that I was a peadophile WTF! and then we watched (SHIT! I cant rmb what we watched?) Isaac! see! its so boring that I cant even rmb what we watched. haha YA! my point was I fell asleep man and when I woke up it was time to leave haha. And at the EZY movie thing, there was this fat man who made us wait for superdamnlong just to return the vcd -.- and I shouted at him but Isaac was like freaking "JACCCCC! stop it!" hahaha Told you I was always high :D But I didnt know how you came up with me being quiet in person! haha Anyway had fun with you that day (: LOL OH! and he wrote me a song, so sweet huhh? haha yes yes! I know nobody wrote me a song before so you're damn good la okay! Thanks anyway (:

After that headed to sister's place around there for dinner with Francis, daniel, keith, joycelyn, william and shawn and had a great chatting session (: I'm most probably leaving church end of the year! Sigh. oh well. I shall go deeper into church another day.

After dinner, I unexpectedly headed to MOS again :( dragged by Sathya and her 3 friends from workplace. Wayne, Arif and Shawn (sorry if I spelled the names wrongly!) I was like wearing shorts and teeshirt so sathya brought this top/dress for me and OMG! it was so short okay. I decided to wear my shorts underneath as I wasnt used to wearing so short before and I think I annoyed Sathya very badly, cos I kept pulling the top down non-stop and I kept telling her "Eh die la! so short wa lao eh! die la, how ah" hahaha and I forced her to go to the toilet with me alot of times and I kept fussing over it. I swear this was the first time I wore something I felt so uncomfortable in my whole entire life! Plus I was wearing haviannas and I looked superduper horrible, like the bag I was carrying was to go to the beach or something! And I just looked like crap. Thank God! I dont use makeup, if not it would be doubly worse. But after I was inside alr, I didnt bother cos it was pitch black! haha. Anyway I swear I wont ever go MOS again, its really urggghhh! The choice of music and the people Gosh! Alot of MATS think they very cool please, all wanna dance like they're so HOT! OMG! I really cant stand it. I turned away from at least 6 malays ok! the chinese ones also. Nvm! I shan't elaborate. haha but practically I just didnt wanna dance with anyone. I'm weird! And sathya was like "Go in the centre and dance go go! then people will buy us drink" GOSH! that girl is really crazy and she dances like there's no tomorrow. haha And I saved money for mac's breakfast! An angmoh paid for me hahahahaha (: He told the counter person "She's my 35secs best friend" (Nvm! inside joke) haha Anw more photos in Arif's cam, for now its sathya and I. We finally get to club tgt after saying for so long. hahaha Had fun with you babe (:

OMG! I think I've like so many things to blog abt that I'm really tired of typing alr, so I shall just type shortly and sweetly. So saturday I slept till 5pm and I went to rebond my hair at fareast! Sadly no peektures hahaha. The rebonding took me 4.5 hrs ok from 7-11.30? longest ever! I almost died. $98, weird though. the aunty told me it was $90 bucks over the phone. Oh well! then headed to Chijmes, Harry's to have dinner around there then home sweet home! And Sunday! Went to church, really boring :( then after church went for lunch and caught "The happening" with bt, dan, cj, shawn and jer. I really think I'm becoming like a boy! Cos I keep hanging around guys nowadays. Tsk tsk! Thanks to Vanda who have to work :( Sighhh miss you babe. Havent catch up with her since I dont know when. Oh well! yes missed her so much that we went to Suntec, IT fair to look for her (: Had dinner with bt at mac while the rest ate at Pastamania. Then bt and I had this 'question time, where each of us took turns to ask each other questions' LOL He really asked me some hard ones though. But it was a good secret time haha found out alot abt him (: Then Home sweet Home!

Okay basically that sums it all up! my weekend. Oh and dont watch 'The happening' It really sucks. OMG! damn boring. haha okay its 301am and I'm think Im really dead! sybil is up tooo Gosh! haha Nights! yay tmr out with the Girlfriends <3>

*Anw I think you should know who you are, seriously, Im not mad or anything, just thought u were a little absurd in what you told me. I've been in your situation before and I know how it really feels. If it hurts so bad and you cant take it anymore of what's going on in my life then please get on with your life and don't talk to me. I'll gladly move out from your life just to help you move on, if it means losing this friendship. You're always suddenly texting me geting angry at me for hurting you, I'm sorry for being so insensitive But what do you expect me to do? Maybe You shouldnt waste your time holding on to something so worthless. It's seriously not worth it. Go think about it, dont hang there for something that's so insignificant. You takecare then (:

The tears aint worth it.

2008-06-13T03:52:00.022+08:00

This is the book I've been reading over the past few weeks. Interesting & humourous. I've kinda gotten back the passion for reading alr. Gonna borrow more books when school reopens, Maybe Sophie Kinsella books (:

Anyway today is a Saturday and its already 238am and the post was too long so I had to continue it today.

Gonna blog abt myyesterday & today! (Wednesday and Thursday) Before I proceed abt my day today, yst was pretty boring until evening time and guess what I did when I was super duper bored at home? Like anyone else would, I camwhored! hahahahaha I was like thinking what to wear to club and I just conveniently went to my mirror to help me to lessen my boredom. Cool huhh? haha But I really liked some though. heh. Take a look! So I actually wore that to club (: (You can only see 1/4 of what I'm wearing though)

And I met Liankiat for dinner around Great World City. Ate hokkien mee which was quite tasteless and drank sugarcane juice which I hated lemon. But Lian Kiat claims that adding lemon is nicer -.- dunno whose drink is it? hahahaha and having not being filled, we headed to starbucks to eat this "Thousand something chocolate" cake haha and just chitchat about everything under the moon. LOL He told me I'm very weird -.- like I was the first girl he knew that he couldnt tell when I was actually sad as my actions doesnt seem to show. haha How does that make me weird I wonder. Oh and we were also debating abt whether some things you just dont have a reason for it. Well, true to a certain extent but it's still possible if you think, and I did prove him wrong (: haha. And when we were leaving, I saw fionna and Shihua, most probably going clubbing at Zouk. haha Its been so long since I last saw them and well, I felt like a hypocrite. haha shan't go into that. So ZOUK! Meishi

didnt wanna spent money on drinks at Zouk. So she brought absolute & coke along and we, 5 of us Ms, Sm, jer, this girl sorry forgot name and myself, Oh they're really very friendly people. Jermel is so cute la hahahaha (: but poor her, she was like feeling sick the whole night cos she said she seldom drank. Awwww. Hope she's feeling better now (: Continuing on, we sat outside around Zouk to play this "5,10,15,20......50"

game and apparently the person who called the number and it matches everyone who puts out the number, the person beside her had to drink! Well, so Ms was before me and she is pretty good at this game, which made me look kinda sucky. So She just kept winning & I just kept drinking. -.- What a fair world. haha And before I know it, I wasn't high, I wasnt drunk. I was just really nausea and my vision was blured. Guess what?!! I puked!

Yes I did. haha But i really wonder how do people get drunk cos I just cant. I'll just get all hot and red faced and head spinning as well as Puke! haha Yea, felt kinda like lame man, havent even danced and I was like all giddy. But after puking I felt alot better and Zouk was bloody crowded like we couldnt even move in please.

People there were like mad as well, Some random guy high 5 me. haha When We couldnt take the crowd anymore, that's when we decided to head to MOS (which I never been to before cos I'm not a clubbing fan only once in a blue moon and then I'll go) Yupp where Sm said was really nice for their choice of music and had more dancefloor. Wow and MOS is like a malay mat club. haha So we danced and danced and danced and This is the longest time I ever dance when I went to club. Think 4hrs straight. Told ya that's why my leg was numb!

But I've concluded that I hate MOS and I wouldnt really wanna go back there again if given a choice. And thank God meishi came along and danced infront of me. Cos she told me some retarded guy behind me kept looking at me and wanting to come over but Ms stared at them hahaha. Thanks for protecting me from those assholes LOL. We left around 4plus and just as I was abt to leave...he text me asking if we could meet for a little while

(he knew I was there as we were texting before that as well, for those of you who doesn't know who is he Nevermind!) I went to meet him and we chatted for a little while, but lots of things ran through my head from that short conversation and maybe I did made the right decisions abt some stuff. However, though I must admit, I missed him and was happy that I saw him but after seeing him, comes the really hard to cope part, where you start thinking of stuff at home and tears just dont fail to come out. My weakness was that I allowed him to know I still cared alot abt him and was feeling really fucked up on that very day. The very next night, I spoke to daniel abt him and felt so much better. Thanks daniel (: haha I'm gonna show him I'm ok alr and I shall stop giving in, hopefully. But who knows when the feeling will come back again.

Anyway, here's the Zouk pictures, only took Ms and Sm in my phone, the rest of the peektures are in Sm's camera which I'll upload another day (:

Anyway, today (thursday) is a really random day. But it was fruitful, even though I reached home at 7am having a spinning head & I almost felt like dying. HANGOVER! that's what they called it I think. Ate a panadol and went straight to bed. But had a little difficulty though, cos my legs were aching like crazy and my head just made me very very uncomfortable. I woke up at around 11 or 12plus that's when ting called me and I was like shit! I'm late. I was supposed to go school with the rest of the classmates to do PP. But I just couldnt as I felt really sleepy and my head was still gone case. Sorry ting for standing you up :( HAHA and then I discussed

with dennis abt where to meet on msn and also the interview questions and I went back to sleep. But it was a damn weird sleep cos I kept waking up every 30mins to check the time as I didnt want to be late for my interview and all tgt I slept another extra 1hour or so sleep. So I said it was fruitful, cos I did my PP interview today. LOL I didnt know why I was kinda nervous at first. Thank God I had dennis to accompany me.

Thanks love ya dennis hahaha. He's so nice helping me to ask and all when I was stuck. It was a great interview though. The Jon guy in charge was really nice and all so he made the interview easy. But I think I may have to go back to MG (Music Garage, that's where I did my interview) to take some photos for the report cos they dont have any pictures on their website. Anyway here's the website http://musicgarage.com.sg/ you people should check it out cos I think its a really cool music school and everything (: Found out that their prices

compared to other music school is much more affordable! So after the interview, met up with dennis and his tennis friends awhile (haha! dennis and tennis LOL) OMG! I'm so randomly lame please. OH! and dennis had a really cute friend who he says is Malay but in my opinion he is like a very "tanned" chinese lol. And he's 27yrs old. so whatever, just some eye candy I had for the day. haha. They are like super rich kids! Willing to spend 27 bucks on Sakura, this buffet place and I'm like damn broke haha so headed to find Boontheam and the rest at Suntec and ate pastamania, had 30% off cos shawn's friend working. After that I accompanied Bt waited for

Lander to knock off and we just crap until 11plus before we went home and that's how the day ended (:

I shall blogged abt Friday, Saturday and later on tomorrow! I gotta wake up at 9am and its alr 318am I rock (:

Hopefully I can wake up if not I'll miss church again which I dont want to. Havent been to church for at least 3Sundays alr and I kinda miss it (: Okay, goodnight world! Love ya (:

2008-06-11T02:27:00.013+08:00

'you didn't notice, you mean everything'

I seriously wonder you're writing it to prove to me something or?
Whatever it is, I hope after meeting I'll not give in.

Okay, today there isn't any pictures to go along with this post. So I guess it will be a short and sweet post (: Maybe I shall upload some random pictures so it doesnt look boring. hahaha Furthermore, I slept at 6am yesterday and I'm kinda sleepy now. So after this I shall head to bed. I think today is "MSN special day" LOL. I had like 13people talking to me.

Anyway, I think I really lacked sleep and it proves to be so cos I was like closing my eyes during tuition just now and talking crap. Like I didnt know what I was babbling about until my kid went huhh? then I was like "Okayy Jac wake up!" Yes! no tuition next tuesday! Her mummy's busy or something.

And today I totally didnt wake up at 10 and met the gang 3hrs late. Didnt go accompany Lk configure in the end and play tennis. Too late. LOL sleepy man. I was right, I was their torture target esp for WM who loves hitting me. God knows why? But after today, I got to know him a little better and he's not as fierce as I first thought so. LK and daryl are nice people too. Love hanging out with them. Fucked up bunch of people. hahahhahaa (fucked up in a nice way). Anyway Meiyee came along too? didnt ask abt her bbq though. We went to party world at woodlands! They had this student thing quite affordable la. 14bucks for 4hrs. But we only stayed for 3hrs cos I had tuition. Haven't been there for a very long time and it felt great singing after a long time. haha As for the guys, I think they really own the bank or something they didnt even really sing, esp daryl and LK. Half the time Meiyi & me owned the mike. What society is this nowadays? The guys are actually shy. LOL

Then met isaac for supper. Although it was really a one-sided supper! isaac forced me to have supper with him if not he'll slaughter me. Nooooo :( hahahaha. A really short one though, but he never fails to brighten up my day when I'm with him. LOL yes you and ur psychotic mind! I said hold me incase you fall, not hug me cos I'm cold Loserrrrr (:

That's all, I'm really sleepy. Wont be home the whole night tmr. So will be back soon. Goodnights Earth (:

Random pic; I miss the people, def not lesson time :(

Better in time (:

2008-06-10T02:20:00.022+08:00

Thought I couldn't live without you,

It's gonna hurt when it heals too.

That's how I'm actually feeling at this phase of my life. But indeed it will all get better in time. It did work for me, A very slow process though (: But, I'm sure I'll get over it really soon!

Anyway, this is where I'll start ranting as of today. No more multiply. Just wanted a change of environment. haha I think its still a cool place to blog at and constantly getting amazed by peektures taken by friends (:

Girlfriend's new pericing (She's becoming a whole lot more daring la!) Although I think, if I were to get a lip/mouth piercing, I'll get a Monroe one. Thanks to the influence of Isaac. LOL

Anyway, on a lighter note, Went out with my "DEAREST GIRLFRIEND" today, after almost weeks of not seeing each other, I miss her alot. It felt like 1oyears of seperation. haha oh well, what exaggeration! But yes! It was a great meetup session with lunch, crapping around far east, catching the movie "Narnia", lots & lots of camwhoring at the toilet, wanting to catch another 'free' show which we ended up wasting our time & getting disappointed. AND then lots of aimless walking around town And I had my all time FavouriteDeliciously

"DOUBLE CHEESE BUGER" & Pasarmalam's "CheesyToufu" which I have been craving for damn long alr for dinner! at bishan. then HOME SWEET HOME!

(Apparently, we camwhored in the toilet for close to 20mins and nobody chased us out! When we finished, we exited to find ourselves being able to catch another free movie as there were already other people coming in. So we sat there waiting for the show to get started. And guess what? It was Narnia again. -.-

These are some of the peektures girlfriend and I took over 20mins. LOL

That's practically how my day went, kinda boring huh? But spending it with people you love, now that'll do wonders (: And of cos having such an entertainingly/retarded person who says crap and self-entertain. Its no wonder people think I'm ''THE JOKE"!

Guess what? I finally got my naval peircing (: I loveeeeee it alot (: But I gotta admit, it's quite painful though. Comparing it to my tongue and ear piercings. I teared and grabbed the chair as my friends were far far away. God! that was one of my"I"D RATHER DIE MOMENTS" But nevertheless, blah blah blah the pain is still bearable la. So those of you that have been contemplating to pierce, don't be bothered by what I say ok? If you never do what you really want to do, you're gonna regret it! We humans have only 1 life to live. But yet again, I find what I just said so ironic? haha Cos I wanna get an eyebrow & monroe piercing, BUT I can't cos of Parents and church. Sheesh! Nvm, I'm looking forward to my neck piercing (:

It's really an addiction!

Anyway, tomorrow heading down to bloody RP, haha accompanying LianKiat & his gang to configure LK's com and probably I'll ask him to teach me networking. YES! we'll be playing tennis as well. I can predict it'll be total FUN! So I guess I'll be the only female species hanging with them cos Meiyee has a bbq. Oh well, looks like I'll be their target for torture tomorrow :( And Gosh! its 504am and I'm waking up at 10am tmr to visit granny first! It's a longgggg day tmr, and yes! there's tuition at 730pm. I just hope I dont fall asleep infront of the girl.

Random thoughts, don't have to read this (:

I surprised myself, stronger than I imagined. Only affected when no one is around. No point in self-pitying &
letting him know he is still the one that matters. I've even replied harshly. To just make me move on. But its just so hard, everytime when I actually do stop thinking, He tells me how much he misses me, not being able to sleep & cries over me. This pulls me back down again. I seriously wonder why would any guy even do that, It's not like I dont feel what he does, half the time, its that feeling of wanting to see that person again.
But what's the point? It'll just leave someone hanging there. I wish we would be friends once again, where I'll confide or share things with him. But who knows how long it'll take. For now, I'll just ignore the fact that
whatever he does say to me, would be significant. Yes, I can say so much but I guess when it happens it happens.

okay, that was kinda gloomy. Anyway I'll be going to zouk on wed. After 434223513214 days, will be meeting ms & sm. Didnt go club with them before. Hopefully gf can come. Not I'll be sitting along watching the 2 lovebirds making out. haha. While maybe I get approached by weird strangers -.- Anyway Isaac, let's watch friends soon! I miss watching friends man. hahahaha I promise I'll try to free one day okay.

That's all tonight! OMG! I blogged sooooo much.
okay goodnights world (: